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darkness into light...
my so-called life
This journal may contain adult concepts.
Created on 2006-04-18 06:03:35 (#10055246), last updated 2009-11-18
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Basic Info| Name: | vampyrrep |
|---|---|
| Website: | My Life Is My Message♥ |
Biolemme see...
I claimed Sakurai Sho in![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/community.gif)
arashi_claims je_claims
I claimed Sakurai Sho as Ryuzo Mukai (Kiiroi Namida)inarashi_claims
I claimed Sho's blog (otonoha)inarashi_claims
I'm weird...
half-queer..
great with other people's relationships
but stupid with my own..(tell me who isnt!)
people pleaser...
loyal friend...
randy girlfriend...(mmhmmm...)
Über feminist..(as a friend said once...)
passionate in the things i love to do....
(mmmhmmm....even that..)
i am an overly analytical person who loves to pick at people's words...(to expound...what do people really mean when they say something...)
i love taking care fo my friends...its innate i think...quite automatic actualy. i go into "nurturing/clucking hen" mode as per my friend...
she says i can get married already...ugh! puh-leeez!
i am so into local indie bands right now, much caused by my friends here in the office...i am a lot less "jologz" now...as compared to my previous preferences...as stated in my ineterests above...drip,
sound,up dharma down and beansbaxter
i love to pester people online...hehe..thru meebo and thru SMS...
and even live hehe....one of my favorite things to do...be a kid once in a while...even for just a minute or two...
FAMILY...
my parents have separated or rather have been separated by my maternal grandparents due to my dad's inability to keep a steady job. my dad had been self-supporting since time immemorial. my mom was a rich kid... her parents worked for the Bureau of Internal Revenue, owned appartments, rented out houses and fish ponds in the metro and in the province respectively. my dad is a bastard, his dad was from the USAF and my "tita Lydia" was called a "common-law wife"....or "kabit" or whatever you wanna call it...my mom's parents didn't like my dad's family background but they eloped and got married in the local registrar's office. my mom's parent won't accept that so my mom borrowed money - what i am still paying off 'till now plus other "borrowed money" - for a church wedding. they were separated when i was bout 4 or 5 years old...i can still remember that vividly...my dad lugging his stuff into a passanger type jeepney...and he gave me this book about animals...it was for highschool level made by Disney. i was crying, mom was at work....he hugged me for the last tym and he never came back....
FASTFORWARD TO PRESENT
i have that stuck to my memory nuf to be afraid of actualy getting committed as far as marriage is concerned...i'd like to but why not try it out first if that both of you are compatible or not, di ba?
last time i saw my dad was on my 21st birthday, i came to his rented apartment, tried to make "lambing" but the says :"you're too old to have a birthday...." i was like...fine...that's the last straw...i love him, he's my dad...i can forgive him but i will never forget that he did that to me...it wasn't the first time he didn't acknowledge me...
once in public, he did that...he denied that he knew me..."i cried, at the mall...in front of all those people..."
but if he comes back...i will accept him, he's still my dad...i can't change that...
WORK
i've worked for hmmm....more than 5 years now...since i was 17 years old just to have food on the table...this was after my grandparents died and my mom's brother took everything...and we were left with nothing....
i worked in Kenny Roger's Roasters, Red Ribbon Bakeshop, Vision-X,Inc. Phils.(call center), SYKES Asia (call center), Cipher Solutions Co. Inc. and right now at ePerformax Contact Centers....
THE FALL
i fell in love with anohter rep at VXI and he left me..he was my 1st in bed..he loved me..or so he said...he left me for someone else without a backwards glance..
i had 3 other boyfriends but they never stayed...i blame myself for being unlovable...maybe there IS somhting wrong with me...
then i met him...lets not name this guy...he was my sefure...my only mistake was that i loved him..its was a time in my life when i was promiscuous..i slept around..but he was the only one on my mind..something happened that turned my life around and left me broken till now...i dont want to love again...
(to be continued...)
PRESENT
the only thing keeping me up is the fandom..(Johnny's Jimousho) and shosuki...he has become my heaven on earth...but even if he materialized in front of me and asked me to marry him...i'd probably turn him down...too much pain if that happened...to me...i'm not meant to be happy...
for your comments and suggestions..please PM, YM or send me a text message..♥
{Rinnu Tenshiko, sefure no sakurai sho desu..~wishing~lolz~...douzo yoroshiku onegaishimasu♥}
I claimed Sakurai Sho in
arashi_claims je_claims I claimed Sakurai Sho as Ryuzo Mukai (Kiiroi Namida)in
arashi_claims I claimed Sho's blog (otonoha)in
arashi_claims I'm weird...
half-queer..
great with other people's relationships
but stupid with my own..(tell me who isnt!)
people pleaser...
loyal friend...
randy girlfriend...(mmhmmm...)
Über feminist..(as a friend said once...)
passionate in the things i love to do....
(mmmhmmm....even that..)
i am an overly analytical person who loves to pick at people's words...(to expound...what do people really mean when they say something...)
i love taking care fo my friends...its innate i think...quite automatic actualy. i go into "nurturing/clucking hen" mode as per my friend...
she says i can get married already...ugh! puh-leeez!
i am so into local indie bands right now, much caused by my friends here in the office...i am a lot less "jologz" now...as compared to my previous preferences...as stated in my ineterests above...drip,
sound,up dharma down and beansbaxter
i love to pester people online...hehe..thru meebo and thru SMS...
and even live hehe....one of my favorite things to do...be a kid once in a while...even for just a minute or two...
FAMILY...
my parents have separated or rather have been separated by my maternal grandparents due to my dad's inability to keep a steady job. my dad had been self-supporting since time immemorial. my mom was a rich kid... her parents worked for the Bureau of Internal Revenue, owned appartments, rented out houses and fish ponds in the metro and in the province respectively. my dad is a bastard, his dad was from the USAF and my "tita Lydia" was called a "common-law wife"....or "kabit" or whatever you wanna call it...my mom's parents didn't like my dad's family background but they eloped and got married in the local registrar's office. my mom's parent won't accept that so my mom borrowed money - what i am still paying off 'till now plus other "borrowed money" - for a church wedding. they were separated when i was bout 4 or 5 years old...i can still remember that vividly...my dad lugging his stuff into a passanger type jeepney...and he gave me this book about animals...it was for highschool level made by Disney. i was crying, mom was at work....he hugged me for the last tym and he never came back....
FASTFORWARD TO PRESENT
i have that stuck to my memory nuf to be afraid of actualy getting committed as far as marriage is concerned...i'd like to but why not try it out first if that both of you are compatible or not, di ba?
last time i saw my dad was on my 21st birthday, i came to his rented apartment, tried to make "lambing" but the says :"you're too old to have a birthday...." i was like...fine...that's the last straw...i love him, he's my dad...i can forgive him but i will never forget that he did that to me...it wasn't the first time he didn't acknowledge me...
once in public, he did that...he denied that he knew me..."i cried, at the mall...in front of all those people..."
but if he comes back...i will accept him, he's still my dad...i can't change that...
WORK
i've worked for hmmm....more than 5 years now...since i was 17 years old just to have food on the table...this was after my grandparents died and my mom's brother took everything...and we were left with nothing....
i worked in Kenny Roger's Roasters, Red Ribbon Bakeshop, Vision-X,Inc. Phils.(call center), SYKES Asia (call center), Cipher Solutions Co. Inc. and right now at ePerformax Contact Centers....
THE FALL
i fell in love with anohter rep at VXI and he left me..he was my 1st in bed..he loved me..or so he said...he left me for someone else without a backwards glance..
i had 3 other boyfriends but they never stayed...i blame myself for being unlovable...maybe there IS somhting wrong with me...
then i met him...lets not name this guy...he was my sefure...my only mistake was that i loved him..its was a time in my life when i was promiscuous..i slept around..but he was the only one on my mind..something happened that turned my life around and left me broken till now...i dont want to love again...
(to be continued...)
PRESENT
the only thing keeping me up is the fandom..(Johnny's Jimousho) and shosuki...he has become my heaven on earth...but even if he materialized in front of me and asked me to marry him...i'd probably turn him down...too much pain if that happened...to me...i'm not meant to be happy...
for your comments and suggestions..please PM, YM or send me a text message..♥
{Rinnu Tenshiko, sefure no sakurai sho desu..~wishing~lolz~...douzo yoroshiku onegaishimasu♥}
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